So my mum has fucked LL big time. She's eating fruit and Ben and Jerry's and drinking whatever she fancies. It's amazing she's being so blithe about it. She said to me last night whilst two LL peanut crunch bars lay on the side 'well, it's better that I eat fruit than a pie or a burger' and I said 'why are you even eating fruit? There are two bars right there'. To me it just seems ridiculous. It's such a waste of money. There's no point doing this half arsed. I wouldn't bother carrying on if I were her. It's not that difficult to just eat foodpacks - I've done it! After going five weeks without food I would not be tempted to eat by anything because five weeks is such an achievement. I wouldn't want to blow it.
The past week has totally flown by. I haven't even thought to do my LL homework and already it's Wednesday again! I think I will have to write any old crap down and make a hash of it - reminds me of school again. To be fair though, I usually do it straight away on a Thursday morning. LL Counsellor says we don't have to do it but I'm sure she'll pull one of those 'I'm not cross, just disappointed' routines on us.
One of my favourite things to do at the moment is make crisps out of soups. You do it by mixing the foodpack with a little bit of water to get a thick mixture (one that will drip off a spoon but not too runny) and then spreading it quite thinly on a dinner plate (but not so thin that you can see the plate beneath). I then put it in the microwave for 3 minutes and when it comes out I peel/scrape the result in to a bowl and put some pepper on it. I think it's nice to have something to chew and crunch. Sometimes the flavour is quite strong but I even it out with more pepper.
Last night I foolishly tried to make a sort of chocolate pudding dessert. I do laugh at myself sometimes for thinking that I can put this powder in a microwave and somehow expect it to come out as something magically more appetising. First of all I made a chocolate muffin by mixing a chocolate foodpack with a small amount of - not boiling but - hot water in a ramikin dish and microwaving it for about 1 1/2 minutes. Then I tried to make a chocolate sauce using another foodpack but it ended up being a bit too runny. I tipped out my muffin and smothered it with the sauce. It was alright, nothing spectacular. I think if I put less water in my sauce it would have been a whole lot nicer.
I read somewhere on the internet (oh what a reliable source) that if you eat less salt it helps with fluid retention and aids weight loss. Now obviously I hardly eat any salt as it is but I somehow got it in to my head that drinking two savoury drinks a day was too much salt and that's why I'm not losing as much weight as everyone else. I backed this theory up with the fact that I always seem to lose more weight at the weekend and then put it on again on Monday. I reasoned that this is because I don't drink any savoury drinks at the weekend but I drink two on a weekday. So now I am attempting to just drink one savoury drink a day and see how it goes. I'm probably being stupid but when my mum was being good the only real difference in our diets was that (a) I drunk savoury drinks and she hated them and (b) she sometimes missed out foodpacks all together. So maybe that's why she lost more?
