My ketosis breath is rancid I swear. I haven't suffered much in the past 80 odd days but today I cannot get the taste out of my mouth. I have a sore throat, which might not help the situation but I have drunk litres and litres of water. Why won't it go?? In a way I'm quite glad I've been holed up at home the last few days. Kissing in my current situation is out of the question.
It's a horrible taste by the way, for anyone contemplating going on lighterlife. I keep a tube of toothpaste in my handbag.
My mum has gone totally off the rails by the way. It's gone from 'being naughty' to basically not eating food packs at all. The last time I saw her eating a foodpack was Tuesday (and it's Sunday now). Today I've seen her eat a tub of Haagen Dazs and drink a glass of whiskey ("that's not much for 9pm at night" I hear you say but you have to bear in mind she didn't get up until 7pm). Something's going right for her though because she is still losing weight. I won't say I'm not annoyed, to be honest for me to lose less weight than her while remaining completely abstinent effing sucks. It makes me wonder who else at group has lapsed. No one in my group ever says they have. I keep reading online and in the LL magazine about how brilliant group is and how you get to share your emotions about food but my group is nothing like that. All we ever talk about is getting a divorce and what season your skin tone is. Some weeks we don't even look at our books. It's a joke.
My mum said to me the other day that one of her friends questioned whether I was remaining abstinent the whole time, apparently they said 'yeah, but you don't know what she eats at work!'. I was a bit pissed off! Y'know, it's not the hardest thing in the world not to eat but if I lapsed, I'd goddamn say. I'm not a liar! Getting all mushy for a moment, this is a big deal for me. I said I wouldn't eat for 14 weeks and I'm not going to. I know it's crooked thinking but I can't fail. I don't want to lapse or give up and have everyone say 'Oh look, she's eating a Mars bar, I knew she'd never do it. She's getting fat again, look at the size of her ass'. I am going to succeed, there's no question about it.
I made an extremo spreadsheet yesterday. It has my actual weight loss and predicted weight loss. I can look up a date and see what I should weight then. It's cool. I have a graph too! =)
So my ebay items are going good! Some people have bid. I'd urge you to take a look - http://shop.ebay.co.uk/merchant/porkfap - everything has a 99p starting bid. =)
