Watching Eastenders while blogging. Now that's my kind of multi-tasking.

So hey, boxecise this evening! Fucking loves it! I don't know if I told you about my ex-boyfriend's mental new girlfriend who periodically starts on me via text or facebook for absolutely no reason...well anyway, she looks like she has a potato for a head. I call her Potato Head. I was punching the punchbag and really going for it when one of the girls I was with said “Imagine it's your ex-boyfriend...no, imagine it's Potato Head!”. PUNCH, PUNCH, PUNCH!! Bash, bash, bash! It's brilliant. Seriously, I want a punchbag. You don't get many chances these days to punch something as hard as you can and it is fantastic.

Don't get me wrong. Parts of it killed me but I did do all of it. I'm so looking forward to the next one though. God, I am mad.

My mum is really starting to fuck me off. I came in from boxecise full of zest and bounciness. I said to my mum “J at Lighterlife has lost 10st now!” and my mum turned to my dad and said “I don't know, I think some people are going too far with this. They are getting obsessed. They are going from one extreme to the other.”. She then told me that I better stop soon or she'll call my counsellor and tell her to stop giving me packs. “I'm you mother, I have a say in this”...I'm sorry, WTF? I am 22 years old. I am an adult. My BMI states I am overweight. I have been given an ideal weight by my doctor. I jog three times a week for thirty minutes and do an exercise class once a week for an hour. That is not excessive behaviour, that is normal. FOR FUCK'S SAKE. So yeah “I'm your mother, I have a say in this”, I say “I have a say in this, I am me.”. I asked her how she'd feel if her mum called Lighterlife about her. I assume she'd think something along the lines of “What the fuck do you think you are doing?”. It's such a piss take though. She was practically accusing me of having an eating disorder. I'm not being funny but when I go to the gym for three hours a day and weight 7st, then you can section me. As it stands I wear a size 16 top, weigh 11st 7lb and can't remember the last time I missed a foodpack, so kindly get fucked.

She doesn't seem to understand that I WANT TO BE HEALTHY. That's why I want to be vegan and that's why I want to exercise. I want to be fit, I want to give my body nutrition, I want to feel positive. I have seen the effects of eating disorders: tiredness, sallow skin, depression. Far from my aspirations of wholefoods, bright eyes and yogini-like flexibility. Urgh, the whole fucking thing is ridiculous. I don't even know why I'm fighting my corner here because her claim is nonsense. I want to cook, I want to bake, I want to eat. And yes, I want to run too. What's the fucking problem?!

Of course, part of me wonders if this has something to do with the fact she cacked up her Lighterlife a treat. It's harsh to say but you have to wonder. She told me she would get Christmas over and then start again. Then it was “I'll start again once my Chinese flu has gone away” (yes, what the fuck IS Chinese flu?). Now it's “I'll start again once I've had my scan”...”when's that?” you ask, only the middle of March. Seeing a pattern here?

When I get to 10st 4lb, I will stop. I promise you that. I swear on my freaking life. I have no desire to Nicole Richie myself. I do Lighterlife by the book (as you well know) and that's my goal. I am going to get there. I am going to get there without lapsing. I would like to get there without interference too.

Sorry, this whole subject really pisses me off. As far as I am concerned I'm not in the wrong at all. Surely an impartial individual would say “LLGirl has been given a reasonable goal by a medical professional. She is following the government's advice about exercise. She has an unhealthy BMI but she is working towards a healthy one. More fucking power to her.”

More fucking power to her!

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Week 24 - Fratellis Gig!
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Week 30 - Exams!
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